One day I was having an all to frequent melt down in the form of "crying excessively" (frequently it is in the form of blowing up and losing all patience). Unfortunately this occurred in the presence of my small children (2,4,and 6).  This behavior contributes to my complete feeling of worthlessness, failure as a mother, and lack of feeling in control of my self and my life.

 For the past several years (2-4) I have fallen further and further away from my walk with God. Distracted by 3 little blessings, tiredness, chaos and lack of direction.

I had reached a desperate point in my life and pretty much lost faith, not in God's existence, but in God's interest in my life and ability to help me. So there I am, in the bathroom unable to stop crying, and I pray to God "Please, either finish me.. or help me".

My 6 year old daughter heard mommy crying and was concerned. Then she said,  "Mommy maybe you need to think happy thoughts instead of sick thoughts.You know, like think about the parents meeting at school last night, that was fun!"

I just looked and said "You're right honey." While I wondered where she had heard someone say that before, I realized that it was God answering my prayer. He was giving me His perspective, and wisdom. He revealed that my mind was my problem. That I needed to count my blessings, focus on the positive, be thankful, and set my mind on things above not on earthly things. And yes, He could fix even my broken way of thinking. And if He had to, He could do it through my 6 year old daughter! I needed to focus on God's perspective.

 I am thankful, soooooo thankful for my 6 year old Kindergartener who delivered the wisdom of God to her 35 year old mom.

Monica Parker
KGBI

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